It's currently 5AM and I'm a bit exhausted, as all men of this late hour are, so I apologize if this is of the rambling nature.

A little background first.

I am a teenager in high school. I regularly browse Reddit and found my way to r/seduction, somehow. I started reading all the FAQ stuff and my mind was blown. I loved the principles of being an alpha and the other principles of seduction. I'm not usually a "hook up" kind of guy, but I felt that the methodology and mindset of a PUA were very valuable and applicable everywhere.

I found this place in February, and tried to apply the concepts in my everyday life. Needless to say, I failed a lot, and eventually just receded back into my previous self. I always kept them at the back of my mind, though.

This year, I've changed a lot. It's all been about growth. As the school year began to end, I found myself attending more and more parties. I'm not really an introverted kind of guy, and I love parties. But I'm never the life of the party. I'm the kind of guy that always wishes he was the one hooking up with girls at the parties, the center of attention, the crown jewel of the party.

For a while, I simply accepted this position. I figured that because I'm visually unattractive, I have no chance, so I may as well accept where I am. I didn't realize that this was a self-defeating way of thinking.

Recently, something in me snapped and I formed an intention of changing that.

A little while back, I was invited to a party. The host had an exchange student staying with him, and I had heard that the exchange student was smoking hot. Before I even laid eyes on her, I formed a mission: to hook up with that exchange student.

The party started around 11, and the rumors were confirmed. She was Spanish, and incredibly hot. Drinks were passed around, yet I decided to stick with sobriety. I didn't want to take advantage of any drunk girls during the night, as I don't think that's moral, so I stayed sober to make sure that that didn't happen.

Surprisingly, so did she. She turned out to be very shy and I figured it would take her a little while to warm up to me. She also seemed to be the type of girl who would not be down to hook up. No problem. I was in the perfect mindset.

I used a trick that I saw a friend of mine use once at a previous party and started up a game of truth or dare. I took total control of the party at that point and used the dares as a method to introduce sex to the party. (This may seem weird to you guys, but remember, everyone here was around 16).

Well, it went fucking great. I wingmanned for two of my buds and they both found matchups for the night and went off their separate ways. I felt fantastic. I had never been in this position before - I was finally spreading my wings.

The Spanish girl however, was a tougher nut to crack. I had talked to her in tiny spurts before deciding to go off somewhere else. I didn't intend on orbiting around her, as I felt that a lesser me would be prone to do.

At 3AM, me, the spanish girl, and a mutual friend went waltzing around the town in his car to get some more party materials. We got to know each other a little better during this period. We separated for a bit, and then later mostly everybody had passed out and it was just us. We talked to each other for a long hour, we were both laying down on the couch and kinda laying on each other's shoulders. It's hard to describe. We passed the translator back and forth, occasionally talked in both English and Spanish.

I had a few opportunities throughout the night to go in for a k-close, but I was being cockblocked pretty heavily by these two dudes who were drunk out of their mind. At one point during our long conversation I had the perfect opportunity but was then cockblocked once again at the opportune moment.

After an hour of just talking to each other --which was very successful, by the way, I had her laughing the whole time, with constant eye contact and even through the language barrier-- she decided to go upstairs and sleep.

Realizing that this wasn't the way I wanted to end the night, I opened up my phone and messaged her on Facebook (we had added each other at some point) saying "Still can't sleep... what about you?" And she replied saying "Come sleep with me."

I realized that, at 6AM when we were both dead tired, and being the somewhat reserved person she is, she didn't mean sleep in the sexual tense. But I still went to her room. And we slept together and cuddled and it was glorious.

Even though that I didn't get any sort of close (is cuddle-close a thing?) it was still an amazing night because I found out that I could be the alpha male and I was the alpha male of that party. It opened up new avenues in my mind which had previously been blocked by a lack of confidence and nervousness.

Earlier tonight, she sent me a FB message. We bantered very briefly before I bade her goodnight, and we both expressed desires to see each other again. I don't know exactly where this is gonna go due to the nature of her presence and all the going-ons of an exchange trip, but it doesn't really matter. What matters is that I was able to take that first step to better myself. It was a very difficult step to take, and I thank you for all the help, Seddit.

EDIT: Going to a house party during the day tomorrow and then I'm going to the movies and dinner with the same group of friends at the original party, including the exchange student. Wish me luck!