So yea, this is not really a super interesting FR. You won't learn anything from it. It's more of a brain dump for me.

So I went to a bar tonight called La Danza. They said there was going to be a lot of girls.

They were wrong.

Only guys and 1 girl showed up.

The upside was: The 2 girl bartenders were hot as fuck.

So In my mind this thought popped up: get the hb brunette bartender 's number. What did I do?

I sat at the bar for an hour getting deeper and deeper into my head. I know that the fix is to take action fast, but I can't seem to do this. I also don't have a natural friend and the 1 wingman that I had left the game cuz of his GF.

This happens every time and it hurts so much... This ain't even a reference experience from which I can learn... I just want to be able to take action... I barely make up reasons not to approach, I'm just scared! And that's weird because for my previous job I approached people all day and that was fine.

Here is the thing, I'm not bad looking. I actually caught the eyes of one of the bartender ones.

I just get a completely red head when I put my feelings on the line against a stranger a.k.a telling her she looks beautiful. I wasn't gonna open with that though, but that's what I wanted to say so it would be grounded.

Now I have had very bad red head experiences. Like sitting in class and getting a turn and going tomato red and you get it...

Otherwise I don't know what is scaring me so much.

I don't know what to do anymore, but I ain't quiting. I'm just gonna go out every day and try again. I actually got some day game attention from some girl who nodded at me for fucks sake and I stll didn't say anything and she was hot as fuck...

I'm in such a good position, but I'm not taking advantage of it.

that was it, Thanks for reading if you read it.

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