Hi, Long time reddit lurker, but felt an urge to share this here as I don't have anywhere else to spew. So I've got a really close friend, she and I have lived together for the past year and its been great. However, I ended up developing some pretty strong feelings for her. Told her the deal and she didn't reciprocate so thats where it ended.fine. But its never fine.

Anyway fast forward to today. We both landed the same job out of the UK for a charity here in Detroit, so prospects of going cold turkey and getting away from these feelings have gone out the window. So here we are, and she's been getting pretty close to one of our colleagues here on project, fine. Fast forward tonight, we're all out at a bar.I drift away and start really putting my accent to use and racking up number closes faster than an amazon shelf stacker and flying on cloud 9. Night draws to a close and the group of us are looking to call it a night and book a 6 seater. Being Detroit, a 4 seater shows up and says he'll take all of us... so me and 2 other dudes jump in the back, and before I figure out the logistics my colleague jumps in swiftly followed by my F-zoning friend. So there we are with the pair of them lying across all 3 of us drunk.... Needless to say the base level tickling and goofing around occurring on my lap was possibly the most emotionally painful 30 minutes I've experienced in a while, completely wiping my earlier accomplishments from memory. So yeah, this has always appealed to me as a close community so wanted to share this experience as I've got no one else to confide in. out.