Newbie here. Non English speaker. Something very strange happened to me. I went to the night club, I started approaching. Thinking about not caring about the outcome. Nonetheless I started getting rejected and became bitter one approach after the other. I saw every other approach by every other like childish, empty and plainly stupid. I saw them as chodes. But I was really the chode of the night: A very hurtful feeling started building one approach after another. And it all exploded when a girl asked me my age (I said I was 30), she was 18. And after that she literally grabbed the drink from my hand (which was water) with no permission and nagged me about it not being alcohol and asked me to buy her a drink. After that I became very resentful toward the girls in the club and stopped approaching. I think shed did that because I automatically fell into the sugar daddy category.

Suddenly a friend of mine said: “Approach at the aim of getting rejected” Game changer: I started saying random things to girls, things that didn’t make connection between each other and all of that was hilarious. Without saying anything disrespectful suddenly I started enjoying that shit and I started to approach every girl, from a 5 to a 10. Girls rejected me of course, but a few of them enjoyed it and started conversations, some of them danced with me, but I wasn’t too much into dancing. That enjoyment given by every approach gave me fuel to make new approaches. Suddenly all the interview questions finished, I was not asked to buy drinks, I started to laugh. Some girls gave me the cold shoulder but I wasn’t hurt about it, even better: I was refueled by it. I changed the 100% nonsensical routine into one of playfulness,

-Me being the thought police -Asking random girls child support -Saying her the owed me drinks because I gave them the money to buy them before -That they needed to pay for using the floor to dance That beauty was forbidden in the club and that they needed to leave -That they need to use protection tonight -Etc.

All of those girls that didn’t reject me in the first 3 seconds tried to create a logical environment of conversation which I denied to them. Suddenly a few of them started to listen. After the opener, I stated playing not agreeing on purpose. Everything became so smooth, so playful. Like the club became mine. That was a sensation that I’ll never forget. Nonetheless I didn’t close in any situation. No results in the direction of sex. From here I have a few questions:

-Am I free from outcome yet? Or do I gain a sense of control by aiming at getting rejected and actually getting rejected. -At a deep level what did really happened to me that stopped hurting me after every approach? -Do I enjoy discomforting girls? If so, is it healthy for my game and for me as a human being? -What to do to close better? Being a number with interest behind, a kiss or a fuck. -Being playful with no sense of logic is the “state” that I need to aim? How valuable is being like that? -How not to fall into the sugar daddy category? -If I want to improve my game should I start aiming at getting better at closing?

Edit: Let me say something clear because some people confuse me, I didn’t felt anxiety or fear. It was more like a sense of being defeated in war because I didn’t have no weapons. It wasn’t uncertainty of pain, I knew that what I was doing led me to pain in every situation.