Hey guys need some advise here, as I god damned froze up this morning before an approach. So I was on my way to the office in the bus in a torrential downpour, with the kinds of wind that make the rain go sideways. The moment I step off the bus, I see this cute little thing huddled against the back of the bus stop trying to keep dry. A bell goes off in my head but I had to move out of the way of alighting passengers and that "momentum" made me keep walking on and on towards my office while all the while I'm screaming "TURN AROUND AND TALK TO HER YOU FUCKWIT". But of course I didn't. The moment I put down my bag on my table, I actually picked up my umbrella and walked straight back outside to the bus stop, where she still was looking fantastic in shorts and heels with crazy long legs and a definite 8 at least. AND SHE WAS ALONE.

That's when I suddenly froze up and my legs refused to move, and a second voice appears in my head screaming "DON'T DO IT YOU CREEP WHY ARE YOU TAKING ADVANTAGE OF THE POOR GIRL IN THE RAIN".
Then the first voice is going "SHELTER HER FROM THE RAIN WITH YOUR UMBRELLA SHE NEEDS IT"
"YOU'LL BE STANDING REALLY CLOSE TOGETHER AND IT'LL BE AWKWARD IF SHE SAYS NO"
"WHAT MAKES YOU THINK SHE WILL SAY NO TO AN UMBRELLA"
"MAYBE BECAUSE YOU'RE DRESSED ALL IN BLACK AND TWO HEADS TALLER THAN HER"

And so on and so on with a lot more ridiculous arguments.

She was facing the other way so she didn't notice me literally standing 10 steps away, heart racing, head spinning and breath coming in short pants. Then 3 minutes later her bus came, and that's the end of it. To make things worse, I then proceeded to shelter an old man back to the office building like as if it was some fucking consolation prize for my ego.

I don't know what happened back there, but I'm normally not like that. I can chat up people fairly well, even girls who are 9s and 10s. I look pretty attractive myself, and live an exciting life running my business and traveling. Does anyone know what I just experienced? I comfort myself saying that I just had a cold start in the morning and a lot of other excuses. I know that I should have been able to brighten up her day on a miserable morning, but I just don't know what happened right there and it's been eating me all day.

Cheers guys.