It's not possible to get out of the friendzone right? Well after reading the top post about it, and the guy came down hard about not being able to dig oneself out, and reading some posts on /r/seddit about guys getting themselves out of the friendzone, I'm feeling a bit conflicted. The reason I'm asking for space down below is because I want to pursue some form of happiness without being tied down to this one girl.

I know it's already too late and emotionally investing early on was my mistake. It's getting to the point where even if I initiate kino, like touching the back of her neck, hands through her hair, holding hands, I just don't know what to do. I do keep eye contact with her, her eyes are dilated (for some reason I read somewhere that this doesn't matter in being attracted to people? Not sure on this one so I'm gonna leave it open). I can usually put my arm around her waist/take her to another room to take shots if we're drinking. But, the thing is, I've been called "best guy friend".

SOME FRAME OF REFERENCE There was this one night where I was over at her house with a bunch of other people getting drunk like dumb teenagers do from time to time. A little kino here and there, and at the end of the night, where I decided to talk to her about needing space, she started to tear up a bit. I ended up wiping it off her face and we were really close (touching heads). I wasn't the one to initiate. She moved in and I pulled back. I know a lot of people would say you fucked up, but the next day when I talked to her in person, she said she doesn't remember initiating (I do believe this because she has a long term concussion problem and drinking/smoking weed doesn't help at all). I pulled back because I didn't want to get with her drunk, and apparently am a stand up guy for this (so fuck ya haters).

The problem is that I emotionally invested too quickly and I've decided to freeze her out for a little. For reference I'll copy and paste a snipit of what I said. I'm actually extremely close with her but I don't know how to advance after this. Being a senior in high school is such a bitch because we have at one class together as well as a free block. However, here is the text I sent her the other day

"Ok here goes So I know we haven't really talked a lot recently and there's definitely a little reason for that. Here goes, I really do care for you, and whether or not you're in a good or bad mood. I really do want to continue to develop this relationship, but, I really do want to emphasize the space issue we talked about earlier before. I think some space right now will definitely give us time to figure some things out. I still do want to talk, but I feel like in such a complicated situation, I do think we should ease into our degree of emotional dependence on each other. I understand it's a lot of what we talked about before and maybe even more, so take your time with this if you need to. It's a lot to take in, so no worries if you want to sit with it for a few days"

Her: "Okay [My name], whatever you want. I'll just wait for you to approach me instead of initiating so much, like we had planned before. I'm glad you've had some time to think and nola, and got some space. Im sorry"

Me: "Thanks for being so understanding. This really has nothing to do with you, I just need time to work some things out on my end. You've done nothing wrong. Let's talk more in person when you get back?"

Her: "I'd love to, just let me know when you want to or when you're feeling up to it."

No text back, I'm alpha as fuck ;) (kidding I'm very much a beta at this point in life sadly). Any encouraging words or advice is very welcome. Love you guys :)