I'm a 30 year old guy and I've had a ton of issues getting to this point in my life. After going out dating using an app, failing, being stood up etc. I met my first girlfriend, it was easy we hooked up straightaway, things were going well.

She wanted to be in a relationship quickly, however i wanted to take it slow and felt anxious about wanting to settle down too soon. But i explained it was new to me, and she was OK about this.

A few weeks passed we were hooking up and having fun, then she got pregnant about a month into the relationship, this freaked me out, but we decided to have an abortion and then see how it would go. There was then some complications with the abortion and she had to have a miscarriage, I stuck by her and kept in touch to make sure she was OK.

She did pull back due to being in pain a lot and obviously no sex, but i was understanding.

So about a month ago she became increasingly more difficult to get a hold of and we barely saw each other, but kept in touch on a daily basis. Finally she had her last appointment with the hospital booked and we were planning to go away somewhere for our first holiday. However, she messaged me saying we needed to talk, i asked if everything was OK etc, but she said it was but wanted to have a chat the next day.

I felt like i was waiting for her to call all the next day, and finally tried to call her and she didn't pickup, i sensed something was wrong anyway and to be honest was getting frustrated with the situation always waiting for her etc. So i asked her if she wanted to be with me and she rang about an hour later giving me the lets be friends speech.

I was fine with it and we decided to be friends etc.

I kinda felt relieved at first but over the coming days i became more sadder and wanted her back. I'd taken time off work to go away with her but as we'd broken up i just tried to be around friends and not alone.

I ended up caving in and messaging her about 4 days after, wanting to have her back, she basically went into a rant about some personal habits that i could easily change and happened early in the relationship, so i said i'm on a learning curve and changing wouldn't be an issue etc.

I asked her if she wanted her things but she said no just throw them away, but i'm going to send them to her in a nice box.

Not sure if i still have a chance or its over?