I am starting to hate going out to bars every Friday and Saturday night to get girls, Tinder has gotten me the most hookups but lately has been a major waste of time. I go out to enjoy myself usually and the girls come to me and I end up hooking up and having a good night. The nights I get just numbers nothing ever pans out.

Lately though I hate going out. No one seems that attractive to me anymore either or worth shooting my shot at.

I hate drinking and have started just focusing on fitness I had only one drink this week and it was tonight. I honestly just don’t enjoy it anymore but it is a great social elixir.

So I am having a hard time detaching and having fun. I always go out solo because none of my friends are usually available and I tend to have better success solo.

But lately I just feel so I don’t know… out of place. I stand around puffing on my vape and staring around with a drink in my hand (or not with me quitting drinking which makes me feel even more awkward). Drunk people annoy me, always so touchy and chaotic.

People tell me I have a resting bitch face and look mad so this makes me feel even more out of place. I just don’t know what to do with myself when I’m out anymore. The music is usually so loud you can’t talk to people. And I wonder if I look unapproachable because I’m standing there bored out of my mind thinking I would rather be home right now.

And on top of this I have developed some sort of body dysmorphia as I have lost 50lb this year and now I feel short???? I am 5’11-6ft but I don’t feel tall anymore. I know I am not that tall but I hate when I am walking past other guys and looking up at them.