im trying to impress people and its by trying to be wit or humour sometimes the humour is too asshole-y it just hurts the other person but what i can do otherwise? Take interest in them? But what about when there is nothing to ask about them more? How do i make others care for me?

When i see youtubers being funny and making money. I want friends but sometimes i think about followers, like youtube guys having chicks chasing them. Im trying to remove this view in my brain though.

I see youtube comments people getting hundreds likes for an opinion. Why others have great opinions or good imagination ? But i have a shit opinion, and im absent minded, small minded.. why is it like this? Why some people have briliant minds and are smart and are successful but i dont? Why im a stupid foolish retarded moronic guy??? Why im so bland? Why im so dry? So weakkkk???

I cant even keep a fucking conversation going with a girl. I only get one word replies. Feel like a compelete empty minded loser. I feel inferior and cheap, i feel like i dont have personality..

I always chase, never anyone chases me.

I feel inferior and manly, i think about what to do is manly or what to do isnt manly, i feel incapable, lazy, i dont know who am i. I feel like a childman, child-like, child-brain..

I have spent my energy mostly on fapping.. but im trying to escape it.

I think im doing the ultimate chasing approval and attention.

I think its making me look worthless meaningless and abortive and moronic and cheap person as well.

Thanks for the other comments. It has really helped me....