Sorry about misleading title, my question is: What choice do i make, Natural or PUA?

So for the past few months now I have been into simple pickup. Going up, complimenting, getting the number and leaving, flakes etc.

But I also noticed that I excel at talking to women in social circles, it's as if I have this instinct and I just have this mindset that I want to fuck h er as soon as possible thingy.

So I found simple pickup because a friend told me. And it was fun, stranger approaching and everything but, I felt like it wasn't ME, if that makes sense.

Its almost like in Avatar the last air bender, Zuko was banned because his father didn't accept him as who he was. So he turned violent and hunted the avatar to gain his fathers honor once more, and once he achieved it, he still felt empty because it wasn't who he was to begin with.

That's similar to how i feel. To emphasize, something interesting happened recently

I was in school and I approached this girl (not to game her, just being myself) and eventually we started to get really intimate, holding hands etc. But i fucked it up because i rejected her kiss by accident blah blah blah its a long story. So i decided to use "game" on her and day by day she grew more distant and cold. Until one day i just said fuck game, Im not doing this shit anymore. Then i noticed something. I began to be more sexual with her, i would always be within kissing distance when we talked, our legs would touch when we sit next to each other, etc..

But i always get back into "game" because i see the possibility of how good i could be with women in stranger approaching, but social circles are what im naturally good at. What should i do?

Sorry for my bad typing/storytelling/getting my point across clearly. Just trying to explain as best i can for you guys.