20yo virgin female here. I grew up overweight and as I’ve aged I’ve become more mid-sized. But growing up as the “fat girl” meant I got no attention from guys, and if I did I genuinely thought they were making fun of me because how could anyone want to date me? I also have diagnosed social anxiety along with this so you can imagine that dating isn’t really my scene. I recently went on a couple of dates with this guy. He was perfect on paper, but it literally gave me so much anxiety I broke up with him. Every time he kissed me or even touched me was freaking out on the inside just waiting for it to be over.

Fast forward to now. I’m talking to this guy who is really interested in me, and i think there’s potential here. But I’m afraid I won’t be able to give him what he wants. It’s just too complicated with me. I just want this anxiety to go away so I can date normally like everyone else.

(Ps I don’t think I’m asexual, just really, very, anxious about being touched)