I feel like I made a huge fool out of myself and acted like a creep and that I’m developing a reputation as the creep or something where I live. I felt so depressed and hopeless today that I just watched the sadest movie I knew and cried through the whole thing.

I also watched https://youtu.be/CVO8gjn3dFg and, probably partly because of the state I was in, I thought it was like the most beautiful thing I’ve heard and watched it literally like 10 times and cried every time. I’m trying to express myself more, and I just thought he expressed himself 100%.

Now I feel a little bit better and am going to the gym. I won’t give up. I just wanted to share.