Yes. I know. Low self-esteem. Seen that thousand times. But really - who is the person to blame about all my failures? Who? - MYSELF. I hate my behaviour, my emotional impulsivness. I hate my isolation, social retardation, basement dwelling and unability to find get fun with people. I hate my bat habits and addictions. How I lack of willpower to deal with them. I hate my procrastination and thirst for instant gratification. I hate my health, my problems, my weight. I hate how hard is for me to change my habits. I hate how I depend on others and all the time want their help or validation. I hate how much problems I cause to my parents. I hate that in my age of 28 I still don't have stabile job, own house or even ended education. I hate that I don't approach women and don't talk with them. I hate that I don't move to change that all. And above this all, I hate that I hate myself.