Long post warning. I turned 18 fairly recently, and I've known about this community since like the age of 14. I've always been interested in the Venusian arts, probably because I never was good at seducing women. Infact, I've only had sex with one girl, once, and it was because she was hot and didn't give a fuck, and I socially knew that I didn't want to be, or at least be seen as, a virgin. That was alright, but basically never gave me a good experience and I never really cared about pursuing women, I was content just jerking off. I'm at a new point, though. I basically reconnected with a past lover, some oneitis shit... I am a way too overly sensitive guy, and I pussied out on her totally. Basically, I've always wanted to be a pua I mean who doesn't, but I actually feel the need to learn about and seduce many women at this point, especially after going through this. I don't know where to start, though... Tinder? Fake ID? I don't need much inner game, well I do, but my life is completely out of balance in terms of practice, even if I see a hot girl, or a girl in my social circle shows interest and I could potentially get with her or at least try, I just never do and I never have. I know it's probably some fucked up psychological shit, but I want to get over it all and see things clearly.