I’ve been a introverted person whole my life. Last year i wanted to make a change and start be more social. I progressed a lot which i’m proud of but the more i get to know a person the more it becomes exhausting. I’ve never dated someone before, these last 10 months i talked and met a lot of girls but had 3 girls who i got really close and could’ve had a relationship but it just didn’t work out becuase I’m either doing something wrong or i’m unlucky af. First girl flirted with me for some time but I wasn’t sure if it was flirting I thought we were just friends but i had feelings for her, couple of weeks later i asked her out on a date which she agreed on. Before our date she said she’s sorry if she gave wrong intentions and friend zoned me. Totally okay, it hurt a lot because it’s been years since i had feelings for someone but it’s experience isn’t it? I got over it. Fast forward 2 months i met this gorgeous girl, didn’t waste time and asked her out, we went on 2 dates, brilliant dates, only thing was I wasn’t sure about my feelings and when i was trying to figure it out i got ghosted. Also totally okay, besides it’s probably for the best because I didn’t have feelings. Couple of weeks later, i met a another girl in a friend group. Absolutely cute and sweet girl, in a week we became really close, i’v never been this close with someone in such a short time. I’m lonely and she’s treating me nice, how am i not supposed to catch feelings for her? I learned that my not so close friend was talking to her for a while and got rejected, i was kinda cautious because after all he’s my friend I don’t wanna do a shitty thing. I wanted to be sure that they’re totally done. My other friends said that go for it and try to date her. I start flirting, she reciprocates or at least that’s what I thought. I saw her today on campus with the same friend group, learned that they just started to date couple of days ago. I’m just sad now. I’m playing the victim role here which actually makes a shitty person but i’m just too exhausted. I just wanna love someone and to be loved back. I don’t wanna feel shitty anymore and I don’t know how to change this. I’m going to gym, i have a lot of things I’m passionate about so whats there to do? How can i get a better mindset and stop playing the victim in these situations and just make myself sadder?