I’m so insecure that a girl approached me and I still dropped the ball. I’m not even insecure about my looks that much but more so my personality. I’m super awkward and I feel like if I ended up talking to a girl, I would not live up to the expectations they created in their head. I used to feel lonely because no one talked to me. After I changed my body language to be less closed off, that changed. Now I feel even more lonely because it feels like no matter what changes externally, even if someone throws themselves at me, I will still be alone because of MYSELF. And I can’t escape myself.