Ever since quitting I've become the person I dislike. Uptight, not outgoing, extremely self conscious, not carefree, and overall just boring.

All of the above obviously not attractive and most likely allow me to repel women (and really just other people in general).

I used to have less problems attracting when I was constantly smoking. I was more carefree and felt like I could be myself unlike the past few years where I over analyze every little fucking thing. Social anxiety through the fucking roof like never before now.

I don't know if I can be how I used to be without it.

It can't be a coincidence that at that time in my life I felt the best about myself and had the most success with the opposite sex. Idk.