Today I turned out to be a rest day of sorts. Fist thing in the morning, I bought a new shorter surfboard. And I wanted to run down to the beach and try it out but the ocean was flat today. I also had decided that I need to take the day off of running. Those two mindsets creeped into my game decision making process. I never mustered the resolve to approach today. Why? There were times when I intended to. There were times when I could have. But I didn't have that certainty that I would approach. Well tomorrow I will. I've decided that right now. And I'll go the next day too. I'll go every day. this next week. There are other projects that I've actually started to neglect now that I've been approaching. I have to find the balance. And the way to balance is to wobble, remain calm, and recover. Today I wobbled. As a I am writing now it's putting me at ease. Tomorrow I will recover.

this also brings up the need to start defining what my intentions are. What I really want is to find a girlfriend. Some one who is a partner; a woman who I enjoying being around; who shares some of my interests; a woman with integrity and good character; someone I can raise a family with; who has good health and fitness. As I'm getting older and have had many women, I really have been disabused of the more juvenile goal. I had a threesome. I've had affairs. I've had probably 50 women. Now I'll be happy with one.

The day was not a waste. I did go to the beach and conduct a "census." I was looking to find out how many woman are at the beach alone. And the answer for a Saturday afternoon is that there are about 15 per mile. Based on the last week I'm pretty confident that I could get into an hour+ conversion with just about any of them. Maybe that's over stating my skills but I can definitely have good convo with at least one. There's just no barrier my skills are good enough. There are enough targets. I can see them. I can hear them. It sure beats night clubs.

so tomorrow I'm gonna wake up and run. Then take care of one personal project that I can know out in an hour. The I'll go back to the beach and talk with 3 woman. Lemme be more clear I'm gonna develop 3 leads. If I have to talk to 30 woman to do that, so be it.