So what's up ? I just got with my old crush again and we kinda had some really deep conversations since i saw here that its cool to do it.She just started after i told her not to judge her and she told me she started seeing a therapist for 2 months already. She told me she had no close friends to talk with and she couldn't stand it anymore . I could see her body language and her energy being very low. She told she had some suicide tedencies and i tried to relate to her as much i could and help her escape.She also cares about what others think about her ( they pranked her writing she's a slut on a school wall) and she got really sad. What i realised is :

I though that i was the wrong guy here, that all my mistakes were mine and i wasn't perfect for her. After actually browsing this sub i actually learned that indeed there are some things to improve ( like escalation , communication , AA ) like today but sometimes you are not as bad as you think.So keep in mind.

What i really need to discuss with is what should i do to help her ? She kinda pushes me away when i get close to her ,'' like you dont need to hold me'' but deep inside i know that she just wants to show that she's strong but she's dying slowly.

I told her for the second time to call me or text me(i am college student to a far city) when she feels bad because she said she don't have anyone to talk to besides her therapist.

I no longer feel bad about myself for not getting her but more bad about her because i can't help her. Should i move on or text/call her myself ?