A little background about me. Originally from India, never had a gf before that. Grew up without parents but did really well in academics and got a job in US when I was 22. The immigration guy told me on the airport that I was the youngest H1B visa holder he had seen the day I entered US. Moved to the US in 2015, was living in Charlotte, NC. Came across this subreddit after that. Read Models, How to win friends and Influence People and No more Mr. Nice Guy and would read some posts from this subreddit. Made some friends and started going out with them and talking to women. Joined a gym and started dressing better. Within an year, I had very little approach anxiety. The pick up community in Charlotte is not that big or maybe I dont know, so I wasn't reading or talking too much about it back then and was just going out with friends for fun. This year in March, I moved to NYC. I have a good job and am probably doing better and am very financially independent than I would say 95% or maybe more people in their 20s. FYI, I am 25. I am a short dude but am good looking. People have told me I am good looking, girls have told me I am handsome and I have also been told that I could be a model. The first month I moved here, I was really confident whenever I went out, I had a really strong eye contact, I wasn't thinking too much in my head and I was just having fun. A couple of weeks after I moved here, a chick took me home with her from a bar and I told her how I was new to the city and she told me that I would do really good with the girls here. I felt really good. I could talk to people on streets and sometimes even in subway. I talked to girls for like 5 min and they would give me their number. Fast forward two months, i made friends and had a social circle but I also came across a group of PUA in NYC and joined a slack group with them and started going out with them sometimes. I was more of a natural person when it came to talking to people but this group had people analyzing every small detail which kinda blew my mind. I started reading the book of pook and watch Rsd Julien's videos and was just exposed to a lot of stuff. I got a few flakes and that brought my confidence down. After reading a shit load of stuff, i am always trying to apply the 'principles' which fucked me up completely. Now, I am looking for women everywhere I go, even when some friend or coworker is talking to me, I am just thinking about how can I meet a girl. When I am talking to a girl, I come off as needy and I am always thinking how can I keep the conversation interesting and funny whereas I had no such problem a few months back and I am a naturally funny guy. I go out to day game sometimes, but I just have two much going in my head and have lost all my confidence. I feel like talking to someone regarding this but dont know whom to talk to as none of my friends know that I read the pua shit and at some level, I dont want them to know. I am thinking about meditation but Idk how that would help. I want to go out with people who can tell me what I am doing wrong but the people who are already good at this usually avoid hanging out with inexperienced guys What can I do to bring myself to my old normal self or get better than that?