the last 6months have easily been some of the toughest i've ever been through. if you look back at my recent posts, the latest really put me in the ringer. since then, i've really forced myself to go out more, talk to more people, open more sets, just be more outgoing in general. but at this point, i feel as though i've really hit the wall. i'm really at the point where i don't care anymore. when i'm out on dates or out socially with friends, i can put on the face of someone enjoying the situation but deep down, i just don't care. i'll flirt back enough to be sociable but it just doesn't matter.

meanwhile, my roommate is crushing tinder and bumble. getting laid almost like a rock star. you think that would be motivation for me to be at his level. a sort of friendly means of competition between friends/roommates...

nope

i could be less interested in competing for the title of most laid in the house.

when i do go on dates, deep down, my interest level is pretty much at an all time low. i'm not a glum asshole to those i'm out with. i carry on conversations, joke, smile, all the color by number routines. problem is, now more than ever, i see the pattern the women is doing from a mile away. it's at this point that i confirm they're just out to either boost their ego, or a free meal/drinks.

the pattern usually goes:

faint interest shit test personal story smile laugh at simularity keno ioi smile laugh at joke keno ioi interest shit test etc, etc, etc

i've tried mixing things up. going to different places. tried chatting up different types of women [of all various means of age, race, social status, body type, personalty type], used different openers, different personalty/behaviors, nothing.

tl;dr: i've hit a wall within myself. i just don't care when i'm out and about or when i'm on a date with someone. i'm not sure how to break out of this funk/frame of mind.