Last week, I discovered a mid-week venue which was a gem for nightgame, however none of my friends were up for going out tonight.

Since yesterday I had been planning on going out solo. I've done it before, last time about 5 months ago and had some of my most successful social nights... I was looking forward to it.

The bar/club gets busy around 10 so when I came in from work i decided to have a nap to get ready. An hour and a half later, it's 8 and I decide to have a bit of food. I watch an episode of my current guilty pleasure tv show, then surf reddit a little and listen to some blueprint decoded. Every so often I look at the clock... 2200, 2230, 2300. I put on another episode. 2330. I read a couple of articles about going out alone. 0000. Now I've just brushed my teeth and I'm getting ready for bed.

Pathetic.

Inaction.

Weak-minded.

I can't even analyse what happened. It's like I never really even planned on following through. I should have just left the house, not thought about it so much. I'm disappointed with myself but filled with resolve too. This is a public personal promise - I will not let this happen again. The feeling of disappointment that I feel right now as I go to bed 100% outweighs any fear of going out alone.

Thanks for facilitating change seddit. Any posts telling me to "man up" will be taken on the chin 😂