I know I promised an [FR] a day, but I missed my [FR] the last 2 days because I'm lazy, tired, and overworked. I am going to make this one more like a progress report.

What I have learned:

  1. Trying to meet girls has made me more aware of how other guys interact with girls. Guys who act dominant, look good, and touch a lot are able to get away with a hell of a lot more. There was one day when I was wasn't feeling very assertive, and I was telling a story to a bunch of girls where I messed up the national anthem in front of a few hundred people, and I used the word damn. Immediately they all turned on me like I just made a death threat or something. I had done no kino at that point, and my body language was poor. In contrast, that weekend I was singing in a quartet with a senior who is very assertive and two girls who are both very attractive. That senior jokingly calls both of the girls bitches at one point and is totally outclassing me in the social interaction, showing his dominance. I call him on it saying, "I don't really see women that way." and he stands by what he said and even goes further calling them bitches for not obeying their man. AND THE GIRLS FUCKING LOVE IT. One of these girls was part of the group of people who called me on using the word damn. Which brings me to my next point.

  2. I can get away with A LOT MORE. I never touched a girl before except at parties, in sports, and to hand her something. I started touching girls, and not one of them minded. I am also on week 2 of nofap so my libido is out of control. During one of the APUSH's teachers boring lectures, my eyes wander to the hottest girl in the room. She catches me looking, catches my eye, and smiles at me in a knowing way. In that moment, I make a mistake by diverting my eyes, but I could have kept staring and made eye contact. I have only talked to her once, and found out we live 2 blocks from each other, so I should really talk to her more, but I am nervous as fuck. Which brings me to my next point.

  3. I never realized how much my nerves control me. I didn't get rejected once in the 1.5 weeks that I have been trying to be bold. None of my kino has come off badly or my words too creepy (well once someone joked that me complimenting their outfit was creepy, but it wasn't serious). This is because I am too nervous to say what I really want to say or do what I want to do. In poker, there is a saying that if you have never been caught bluffing you aren't bluffing nearly enough. Same thing should go for kinoing. Today, it took me a solid 2 minutes to muster the courage to ask for a girl's number, and I wasn't even interested in this girl. I haven't even been able to cold approach the hottest girls in the grade who have been neutral/friendly to me in the past.

I haven't quite figured it all out, but I see some progress. If you all have any advice let me know.