Going out tonight after a long while I havent been out with couple of friends, I am currently a student (Soft Eng), 25 Years old (Virgin, it even pains me to write this word, I did get a BJ tho), and live at home (financial calculations - I do think it's a major set-back in my life tho), and have somewhat decent job for a student.

I haven't been out in so long because the group I usually hung out with all got coupled up with girlfriends and one by one they dropped the contact, at first I was angry but then I just accepted that that's the way life is.

Anyway, I'm tired of my situation, I'm tired of keep reading posts on seddit/reading books/watching videos and not acting on it. the fact I do not act on it nullifies all the other theory stuff I read through.

I can count the number of times I've approached girls in my life on one hand, I am decent looking (although balding, so I completely shave my head with a razor), I work out, believe I am a somewhat intelligent guy, and have a wide array of interests, I'm also pretty knowledgeable (internet lurking does that to you.).

None of the facts I mentioned above help me when that crippling fear of actually approaching a girl starts. I am currently on a week of nofap (not trying to turn it into a nofap debate, I feel like its working for me tho, so Ill keep doing that).

I know all the right things to say, I know that fear isn't rational, I know there are no solid (or any plausible) reasons for me not to approach, but something just does not work up there.

My frustration is getting huge because I've known and read about game, inner game and such for years, that I feel like I'm running out of options (again, I realize that I still haven't tapped my most valuable resource - actually approaching girls out there).

Other than approaching, I feel like there's two sides of me who are completely different. The me around people who I feel comfortable around, and know fond of me - I really like that me. but the me around people I don't know/Girls I just met who I think cute - that me just freezes and remains silent like an ass.

This has gotten kinda long, but once I start writing it just spilled out of me. I got a lot more but I'll leave that as it is for now.

Sorry for any spelling/grammar mistakes I might had, not a native speaker.