(in advance sorry for bad english, not my native language and also this is my first post ever on the forums) Hi Guys, To understand my question i should start from the beggining. Im a normal guy, i didnt consider myself a hardcase, but had a little trouble talking to people generaly(not a single girlfriend till then). So about 2 years ago i discovered the pick-up community. Before that i had connections with 3 girls, but i got into the "friendzone" with all of them. At first i read "The Game". My mind was simply blown. After finishing it immediately started researching on the topick. I read ALOT of theory, watching RSD videos, reading about body language,started meditating, read "The six pillars of self-esteem" and other books on similar topics, stuff to improve myself not only in pickup but in general. About 1 year ago started to go out to clubs (finally 18, i didnt want to get kicked out) started approaching. At first it was kind of hard but i got used to it. Fairly decent success. Few numbers but no lays(i aint even mad :D). Moved to a different city to study. Feeling happy and that life is actually good. The needines and desperation was gone. Built up healthy self-esteem from all the new people i met.

Here begins the weird stuff.

So i returned to my birth city(?!?),about a month ago, reconnected with my friends(awsome guys) and met 2 from the 3 girls that i mentioned above. I felt something i believe i cant actually call it mad or hatred, but i hope you get the idea. Tried to racionalise the feeling, searched for a logic behind it but got no answer. Feeling awful about my bad behavior towards them, because every time i meet them(they live pretty close to my house) i get hostile emotions, reject most of the stuff they say etc, general butthurt.

If anyone can explain this behavior or give me some idea i would extremelly appreciate it