I'm a guy with no success with women... I had sex on few occasions, payed for it though...

I've tried with NoFap too many times and I failed all the time... and to be honest, I don't like myself being emotional or compasionate... I was never like that, and no, I was not aboused as a child and I had a wonderful childhood.

I don't like the fact that girls stick to cold guys who play cold-hot game, but don't like us, Capiricons in zodiac, who are genuinely cold...

I don't know... I don't want to be an emotional (no offence to anyone here) shitty jerk - just doesn't fits me nor makes me feel in my skin - I'm a cold blooded bastart who does no harm when no harm is done to me.

I doubt, I have always doubted, that I'd ever have a relationship, or sex... so what I'm thinking now is either to leave elsewhere to roam the world or to join some type of army which recruits foreigners, like Russian Armed Forces or French Foreign Legion?

Please... advise me, but don't tell me to become something I'm not.