This is my short story...

I'm a 24 year old male. All my life I've had bad relations with the opposite gender, women. Since I started masturbating, when I was something like 11 years old, my relationship with female gender started it's decline and it's continuing to decline...

I've been addicted to porn, to masturbation, to women, to computers (programming and work), to lots of stupid shit in life which fucks my life, recursively and respectively - and I never achived any success with women.

In 2009 I dated a girl, but "nothing" happend. Not even a kiss. Then in 2012 I've dated a girl and I had sex with her for one night and then she dumped me.

Since 2012 I've been miserable and shitty and jerky as one can get, and I don't, I can't, belive that anything will ever change with my relations with women, thus, I can't see the enlightened woman, girl, chick, whatever at the end of the road.

This is the worst mindset and a worst nightmare which can become a reality to someone, so I just came to accept it.

Most of you will read my previous posts on reddit, which I can't argue, but I can say that I'm very frustrated shitty man with no success with women.

They don't even want me to say "Hi!" to them. Most of them think I'm gay... I try to NoFap, but I can't see the point of doing that either when I know and feel and belive nothing will ever change.

I've tried Mark Mason, Models, and I like it alot. But I'm a fucking hardcore programmer, a serious, rational, logic-driven person, who feels nothing.

I have needs like everyone else, but it seems I can't get lucky to fullfill them in a righteous way.

I am not attractive to women - and they know why. But, sometimes I see them dating worst men then me.

Or am I the worst MAN who ever lived?

I probably am the most frustrated man you will ever find, and I will always force my arguments to defend my attitute, whether it's positive or negative; mostly it's negative.

I don't have friends... No one calls me to social meetings and gatherings, no one invites me anywhere, so I'm used to that too.

I'm a fucking hardcore programmer and I debug everything, I analyse everything, and my conclusions are just rational and logic.

Sometimes when I get drunk, I get relaxed, but then I overdrink and I'm getting worse when I do that.

So I know this is a shitty post, and it's all mixed up, and it's irrational, maybe even emotional; at least for me.

I hate computers, internet, and programming more than anyone else will ever hate or hates. Along with movies, porn, masturbation, all those destroyed my life to the max.

So I must admit to myself and the world - I am destined to live alone. What I use to say to women who ignore me is something what even the worst of the sexists, and worst of the womanhaters won't dare to think about or say.

I am a very very very bad person and no woman should ever care anything about me. I am the evil for the woman kind - I admit that.

Some of redditers will "AGAIN" proclaim me as the spammer/troller... of course they'd do. They can't do anything more, like I can't do anything more to change myself.

I will never have a woman besides myself, I will never ever desire a woman - because for my God forsaken nature, that's not natural.

And one more thing... as I've mentioned desires and needs... I have everything in life: money, work, appartment, car; but no friends, no social circles, thus no sex. And that's how'll it stay.

Thank you all here on /r/seduction and on NoFap!