Been dating this girl for over a month and initially I was meeting other girls and had casual sex a couple of times... One was regrettable and ive been put off a bit since. I haven't felt like meeting other women despite talking to two others because I feel invested in this one. We talk daily sparingly about our day and joking around rarely flirtatious as I feel like she either doesn't want that or she's too shy? And with a few bad recent experiences and relapsing to pron i feel weak and non masculine.

I'm taking action right now to ensure I move up again, installed a pron blocker I can't remove, cold showers, meditation etc but I don't currently have a desire to talk to other girls, sometimes I get small desire to but it's fleeting. I'm wondering whether I should organise a date with someone else and open my mind again. She's very busy she trains and plays a sport alongside her job and also has a social life outside of dating. I will be a lot busier moving forward also so I know I'll be in a better frame but I fear something is missing with this girl, like a sexual attraction and I don't know if it's because she's shy and I'm not advancing enough or she's just not feeling the vibe. All I know is she wouldn't have gone on 4 dates with me if she wasn't interested so I can definitely improve things, but I know I must do so with freedom of outcome. I'm not sure if I have a specific question to ask I'm just venting and I'm pretty pissed that I was feeling a lot more self assured a few weeks ago than I do right now. And I'm seeing updates on the invasion and thinking what's the fucking point