I have been doing lots of thinking lately and I discovered that the need for external validation lies at the core of my messed up inner game. I am 25 years old and throughout my life I had problems concerning feeling good about myself (mother always pushing me to achieve more and more, a highly competitive school environment, ...). I never feel good or proud of myself and always need others to tell that to me. As a result, I tend to project that out, acts as either a very nice guy or an asshole, and attract women who are equally needy and insecure.

So, where do I start?