hey guys, one of the bbvers showed me this thread. I''m a first time poster, long time fapper. ( lets be honest i hanf out in bbv4l why would i come to edf? untill now)

i have a question about mindset.

I've been "in or knowing" of the game for about 2 years or so. in that time i haven't picked up. During those 2 years my life was pretty much like a hurricane. I moved to Wales for 7 months before coming back and completing 2 accounting courses.

my life hasn't been stable at all. from packing my shit up and moving to another country, to coming back and living in a house where my folks made it feel like i was on the front line between north Korea and South Korea. my life over the past 2 years hasn't been stable at all.

I've been going out for the past year. I haven't really had much success. i have been going out 2 nights a week ( at the weekends). I've told myself success is to come, but lately i feel like it's never going to come. instead of feeling more better about myself. I feel worse. My mindset has gone from something good to something bad. I have finally started to get some wins together. I have moved out of the crazy house and found something a little more stable. ( though it's still with my mother. so it's not THE BEST for pick up) I also have just recently got my own room and a new bed ( for the past year, since i've been back from Wales. i didn't own a bed or a room just a couch and a small area on the dining table for my laptop.) everything is good, though the past 8 weeks i think i have been sick all of them but one. it. it's like every other week I get a major cold or flu and I'm out of action ( can't go out)

i guess it's taken a toll on my mindset towards pick up. when i go approach the girl I'm not going in with the best mindset. I'm always doubting myself and bringing up stuff from the past that shows me in the worst light possible just to enforce I'm not good at game.

currently I don't have a job. Aussie job market falling, lol. so I am going to read a few books this week. first up is way of the superior man. and the power of now. also the book of pook. is there any other book you recommend?

I've been in the game long enough to know what to do. I FEEL as if i can do it. though I can't pull myself from these negative mindsets to go out and do it. I still also get huge approach anxiety in most situations too. witch is killing my ability to talk to girls as a whole.

is there anything you could recommend for me to do? or that will help me get over this?