I am quite distraught. (pardon the username). Reeling...

CONTEXT- I had read tofufu's Above the Game a few years back and had some success with it. But then I had a dry span (few if any females), and recently, a few months ago began improving and seeking female relationships. I bought the Game, updated some fashion stuff.

So now I have a few females in my orbit, and this one girl, who I had previously messed around with (we made out, she sucked my dick, etc. ; IMPORTANT detail) hits me up TODAY. She's like, " why don't we hang out anymore?" Really, she had been more avoiding me. (There's a LOT to this, too much to write atm) But anyway, so I'm thinking, "Wow, this is so out of the blue. Probably I can begin a sexual relationship with her-- she's kind of promiscuous-- and I can start practicing, and using that momentum to pick up more women, expand my orbit; word of mouth spreads about my how I'm exciting and about my sexual ability. Also, just generally, this momentum-- getting girls talking about you in a positive manner-- can definitely become a sort-of "multiplier" effect (pardon the quasi-Keynesian sounding description). So anyway, I'm like, "wow, this is great, what an opportunity, of sorts." So I text her back, "Oh pleaaase" (referencing her apparent attempt to put the long cessation in our communications on me, when all along, it was,-- in fact--, mostly because of her messing around with this other guy, and basically coming to the place where she is not as attracted to me as she was.) So she says, "What's that supposed to mean?" I write, "You flake," but also, "What are you doing tonight?" I blast through some more of her excuses, and we've got a little date. I went and got her later, after I got done work and showered. I talk to her parents, end up bringing her back to my place for alcohol and smoking. She smokes weed, doesn't really drink. I don't smoke weed, but I do drink alcohol sometimes. So all this time I was using minor physical touch and advances (I wasn't "going caveman," as 'Mystery' once remarked; but I wasn't standoffish either. I thought it was a fair amount of touch, measured and balanced. Is this where I should've amped it up?? That's what I'm thinking) , and making strong eye contact. We had a few light conversations.

Anyway, we end up on the couch alone, her ass is toward me, and she's progressively slumping down and angling toward me. Here I let some time go by, and I was watching the show, getting distracted by the show; which I think was again, another error. I should've put on a less interesting show, and kept focusing on her, specifically on physically, sexually, emotionally advancing with her.

But OVERALL, overall, I feel like I'm doing a pretty good job. I mean, here we are, a little buzzed, touching lightly, no problems, green lights. See a few times, she was pulling back-- here and there. Sometimes she leaned in. Sometimes her eyes and face lit up with attraction toward me. So we had some attractive moments, but in hindsight, I suppose I should've been making corrections, amping things up, to really get it to a place I wanted it to be, a great place.

But I'm thinking, hey, this isn't bad. This is working quite well, victory is upon me. I must only now seize the prize, and its mine. So I get progressively in closer quarters (she was almost laying down at this point, ass angled toward me). My elbow was like up against her butt. So finally,-- after like 30 minutes or so, we're at like the end of a second episode to this show-- I basically lay onto her for like 5 seconds (in hindsight, also wasn't a great move, I think. Decent, but kind of awkward, maybe betrayed hesitation. But of course, I HAD NO HESITATION. Consciously, I was good to go. Oddly my body started getting kind of nervous-- heart beating faster, etc., which is a bit odd. I felt and thought very confidently,-- that's how I am, mostly-- but my body was really trying to march to its own drum, for some reason). So I do this lay-on-her thing for like 4, 5 seconds, and then I'm like, "Alright, victory." And I lean into kiss her-- and in my mind,-- it's crazy-- there's an entirely-different reality playing out. I'm thinking, seeing us having sex. That was supposed to be the reality... it still kind of is reality to me. I'm amazed. Astounded.... And then she rebuffed me. (I'm still blown away thinking about it).

She says to me, "What the fuck are you doing, [my name]" almost like exasperatedly. Not even really mad, just kind of tired, frustrated, confused. I went, "sorry, sorry," and backed off, as she slid up.

And again, I'm just so amazed. I didn't know that this is why I'd be posting on this forum. There was another event last week, that I was thinking about posting about. But I could almost kind of understand that one, and chalked it up to me being really off that day, along with other factors. But I basically thought, "Oh, I'm good now. I've got this.........."

....

I am dumbfounded. I am total disbelief. You gotta' remember, I have only once had a girl completely rebuff me like this, and it was because, I reasoned, I didn't even go in for the kiss. I tried to jump steps, I just moved in for the kill, thought I would start touching her. It didn't work.

And of course, I was dressed well. I was clean. My teeth are brushed and clean. I'm a clean guy, I look fine. I'm strong, mentally, physically, spiritually, with an iron will. I'm a man, she's a female. We've been doing this for thousands of years, as a species. What is the problem here!? I thought to myself,-- I still think this to myself now!

I used many of the tactics advised by seducers, and tactics approved by scientific research of what causes attraction,-- sexual attraction, etc.-- in human beings.

But I believe this is the first time I moved in to kiss a girl, and she rejected it. I'm absolutely amazed. You've got to understand, I thought, I knew, I believed, I knew as a fact-- like you know 2+2=4 -- that all of my plans for this night would work, that I would be banging her, and that it was going to be a great boon to my relationship with her, and as a result other female relationships; sexual relationships included, of course. And it was just going to be a victory, as I desired it.

It didn't go that way. So my question is, how? I mean, it just does not seem possible. I feel annoyed for asking this forum for help. I believed I had it all quite handled well, myself, with my own research. I'm amazed.

How can I prevent this from happening in the future-- this supposed "rejection"? And how can I instead have the desired victory? What were some things I did right, and what did I do wrong, or could have done better on?

Thoughts, opinions. Please extrapolate on some credentials, too, if possible; so I can separate the practical, workable advice from the bad.