Yesterday I went out to the local bar area with 2 girls and a friend of mine. Im attracted to one of the girls and we flirted the entire night sometimes playfully kissing or cuddling but taking her home didnt work. My problem is that im not nervous but every time i get close to a girl I cant sleep at all. 2 days prior to our meet i only slept 2 hours and this morning 2 hours again and i cant eat anything. Im very certain im not in love with her or something like that but I have to admit i think about the girls I got close with very often the next day. But why do I become so melodramatic after these experiences?

Is it because im 20 years old and secretly lonely? i go to the gym 3 times a week and have a wide variety of hobbies but im kind of starved when it comes to romance i think. do i seek recognition or approval but because she didnt come home with me i feel kind of sad?

why is my day after one of these experiences always ruined? do i repress some kind of thought or feeling? maybe one of you can help me without going to a therapist or something