So I have noticed that when I am into a girl I show it with affection and telling her how I feel about her. It seems that even with a LTR women it seems to kick me in the ass.

So my question is...

WTF do I do with my feelings? I am asking because I recently met a girl that drives me wild and when I feel feelings for her it quickly morphs into depression because I know that if I show how I feel it's going to kick me in the face. She will run, I will be sad, I will be without her in my life in any capacity. Honestly I have no idea why she drives me wild. I don't want to fucking feel this way. I don't want to like her this way. I sorta just don't want to love. Ok well I'm going to cry now. I guess I should just distance myself from her.

But still...

WTF do I do with my feelings when I have them and am not allowed to show them because of known repercussions even in a LTR