Sometimes i get angry at myself for not seeing the red flags about my ex. Now I'm here at 36yo have zero motivation to invest any more precious years into another relationship.

I know i did the right thing by letting her go (contantly cheating with other married men, running away and demanding unlimited allowance). That's not the issue, i just feel stupid like i had no brain to see the red flags or enough sense to not marry the first girl i met.

Invested 7 years into someone for her to just have a baby with another guy and I'm here with nothing to show for it....