First, I'd like to say, that I (25) am Red Pilled, but not completely MGTOW'd. I certainly live a MGTOW life, single by choice, focusing on my goals, career interests and hobbies. The trust issues that I developed over the last years with women certainly help in moving towards a life without having any relationships and living without them. Don't misunderstand me here, I don't avoid women. I do interact with them and I am able to talk with them normally without being reluctant.

But just the thought of going through the dating process, being shit-tested makes me shiver and run the different direction. Every calm and funny interaction becomes weird and awkward, when you know the opposite is interested in you. I normally just try to avoid contact for a while as possible, so she accepts that I am not interested and everything goes back to normal.

With that said, I heard once a quote: "The biggest loser in history, are those who couldn't reproduce."

Every day I think about this. If you look at the big picture we are animals and like all other animals, we are born to reproduce, to pass on our DNA. Hundreds of centuries of suffering, that my ancestors endured so I can live. And now I just go, "meh, fuck women, I go MGTOW." Am I really that selfish? Do I really sacrifice practically my only biologically lives purpose?

I know what women can do, I have seen an read a fuckton about the shitshow what women are able to do and have some experience with the two-faced behavior of women myself. Is that the sacrifice a man has to go through to have children? "Life is suffering"

I know a man, he was in a somewhat toxic relationship, the woman left him, but didn't tell him that she was pregnant during that breakup. She comes back, practically gives him the child, but for him under one condition, that he gets full custody. She agrees and leaves. Even him being a single dad now, he would go through all that suffering again that this woman caused just so he can have his son. this kid means everything to him.

I don't really know where I am getting with this. It's constantly a bombardment of "go MGTOW" and "hey dude, over there is a cute one, go talk to her." I don't really know how to go forward from here.