Synopsis of the last 2 years for me in order...

  • quit retail job cleaning floors
  • dumb Christian chick rejected me and lied to me, playing games, even stalked me
  • car wreck, car totaled
  • enrolling in college AND getting a new car + insurance at the same time (stressful asf)
  • worked in hospital cafeteria for 2 months total
  • decide school, work, and my life will not work together cause grades will drop...so left the job
  • driving about 60 miles back and forth to school
  • car needs several repairs while in school, most of my money saved is going fast. Miss lectures
  • stay with friends who's dogs shit EVERYWHERE. Sleep on couch in living room
  • they have a big fight, they decide to leave the apartment
  • try to work with a guy doing home repairs and maintenance. could not work.
  • car needs more work, dies several times, I start to walk to and from school 1 hour and 30 at 6 am. Lift, and have to walk back. Tired asf

  • I go back home the summer.

  • school starts, use check for a lot of repairs and needs

  • stay a couple times at a friend's house

  • financially, driving back and forth is cheaper than staying with them for hotel prices...I am that poor...

  • car shits out on me...needs new radiator, antifreeze cooling system flush, and new transmission oil. Sell something I have for cash to get new radiator. Do all of it in the cold rain while missing classes

  • I pass all classes however

  • start sleeping in my car cause it's cheaper than riding back and forth 3 consecutive days.

  • everything up this point started to set in and tell me something...

Stoicism. I'll definitely remember who was there during these hard times and who wasn't. This all has taught me a lot...most people are full of shit...and I wait for their actions. I've gotten to the point where bad energy, insanity, and stupidity I don't want to deal with, is just...exhausting. I'll just simply ignore it.