I (18F) have been interested in and learning about RPW for nearly a year, and the culture I come from has many shared values. My problem is that I want to start looking for a husband ASAP but I don’t know where to start or even if I should. I know I might need to spend more time working on myself, but I don’t even know what that would entail. Another problem is that I can be very shy and socially anxious, especially with strangers, and that makes it hard for me to meet new people.

I guess I don’t even know where to start, I know I want to be a wife and a mother, and I know i’ll be good at it (i’ve been told many times how good of a wife/mother I will make: I work hard to be positive, mature, maternal, submissive, and helpful as much as humanely possible), but I just have no idea how to get the ball rolling so to speak. I don’t know how to talk to men as an adult woman or anything like that, I have no real experience with dating or relationships at all due to my upbringing. It feels pretty overwhelming to think I only have so many years left to find a good husband before I can no longer have a biological family of my own.

I know i’m young enough that I would likely attract many predators or abusers, and I would like to avoid that if possible, but i’m not too worried about that because I generally am good at reading people and understanding their intentions, good or bad, and my family cares about me so I have a fallback if something goes wrong with a future partner.

Maybe i’m just being too anxious about my getting older, or trying to rush into things too quickly? But at the same time I can’t think of why it’s better to wait until i’m older and less fertile/attractive when I already feel ready for this. I’m fairly independent although i do still live with my parents, I have my own car and am capable of basic adult skills. I’ve helped raise all my younger siblings starting from infancy and helped care for my parents since I was a child myself, and it’s been my dream to be a mother since i was at least 13, I honestly feel that i’m capable and ready for the next stage in my life, but i want to know what other likeminded people who have maybe been in a similar position might think. thanks!