This will be a bit long, so go make some toast or a steak and strap in.

My whole life, I grew up believing that women were special, probably the most beta movie ever is the original spiderman with Toby Maguire. In any case, I grew up thinking that. This was also perpetuated by my father who, while being an alpha in most respects, managed to land my mother by writing not just a song, but and entire cassette tape worth of songs for my mother. (To his credit, he wrote the guitar, bass, drums, keys, and lyrics and recorded them all himself) Fast forward to my junior year of highschool. I was a typical bum, and looking back now, I was a prime example of the genius level flunkie. (Crap grades, respected by my teachers for intellect, always told to apply myself more. all in all school bored me)

In my junior year of highschool, I was retaking a geometry class. (My teacher didn't speak English as his primary language making his lectures unbearable, but mainly I was a lazy puke) in this class there was a girl that sat a few desks away, and I remember being taken by her beauty when I met her. She was skinny, yet not so skinny as to be sick, and her face was gorgeous. We'll call her Lindsey. At this time in my life I'd never had a girlfriend and had never been kissed. EVER. So I was completely elated when Lindsey added me on myspace, and then gave me her number. We'd text back and forth, and I got to know her. Now if I had it to do over again, I'd have learned how mentally damaged this girl was and run like hell in the opposite direction. I found out this girl was a cutter, and I was deluded enough to believe that she could be saved by me and my love. Instead what I got was a wild ride that spanned over 7 years that almost cost me my life, and became one of the driving factors in my moving to a different state 2100 miles away.

What the red pill has done for me isn't so much resulting in more sex or more money, but it has resulted in a far richer enjoyment of what I have now, by equipping me with the mental tools needed to deal with women. Since swallowing the pill, I have strengthened my relationship with my mother, and I have freed myself from the mental prison that I occupied for over a third of my life.

This girl Lindsey devolved into nothing more than an attention whore. I am not bitter, I don't bear ill will towards that girl and I wish her the best, but I will not abide her shitty decisions by always being the guy to pick up the pieces. I am so thankful to have found this sub, and I now spend as much of my free time as possible in the gym or reading, or enjoying the company of male friends.

I will definitely keep all of you fine men updated with better news.