I had a really great day today. I didn't let the negativity consume me and I had a great day for a Saturday. Usually I suck today but I hanged in there, repeated a positive affirmation to myself and approached.

I wasn't worried about the set itself or getting numbers. Today I was focusingon getting used to opening and approaching. I realized that I still need to work on the initial approach. I still have anxiety when it comes to it. I worked on the front stop(side stop) and just maintaining eye contact.

The conversation was either a hit or miss. My goal now is to small chunk my approaches. Starting with just opening. Once I feel like I have a less mental resistance then I'll move on to the next thing.

As well as that I'm going to be developing a positive mindset. I noticed that my negativity is what making this journey harder. I was brought up in a negative household, abuse; verbally and physically, so it's going to be tough to establish a positive mindset.

My desire for a positive mentality was when I was watching an RSD video where RSDTyler was talking about his past. He was saying that he lived a shitty life and that he overcame it by being positive and taking action. He then said about "drawing state from within" meaning being happy internally and not relying on external things(drugs, alcohol, material things, people, etc).

This whole concept really intrigued me. Tyler used to be so negative and then worked on his inner state which led him to crush it in life. The thought came to me, if I were to develop a similar inner belief and state, would it lead me to success with women and in life?

Along with this journey on seduction I'm now trying to be happy, positive and rewrite the negativity that is in my mind. I'm not going to be naive and say that I'll delete all negativity, being negative is not the worse thing ever in fact being negative is a balance of life.

You cannot always be positive and it's better to accept the negativity and learn to not let it consume you and dictate your thoughts and actions. It won't be easy but I really believe that my success today was because I was positive and I didn't let me negativity ruin and dictate my thoughts and actions.

Today I got 5 numbers which was great. I haven't had a good day like this in a while. I did a lot of "Hit and Runs" today. It was fine with me. Any attempt at opening a girl is plus in my book.

The girls that I got the numbers from were okay. Some of the conversation was flat and not interesting but my focus was approaching them to get there attention(stopping their momentum) and holding eye contact.

The conversation got easier and I got into state as the more I approached. Overall it was good. I sent out a good vibe and my positive outlook and thoughts showed through my body language which in turn made the girls comfortable. I did get rejected, lets not forget that but it's steps towards the right direction.

GOALS FOR TOMORROW:

1).Approach from the front. If not able to, side approach.

2).Maintain eye contact.

3).Maintain and work on "drawing state from within"