I spend more time explaining, debating and challenging RP theory on Purple Pill Debate than I do actually reading the side-bar and reading list, why would I do this? How do I stop?

I'm making slow progress with the books, but something within me is almost compulsively drawn to procrastinate and explain concepts on that sub. I believe I have grasped the terminology and core ideas of the Red Pill but have not yet psychologically conditioned myself in a way that would warrant my calling myself a Red Pill man. I feel like I'm trapped in a cycle and not sure how to get out, I don't even know why I do it or what I seek to gain from it. Thoughts?