Rant from a Virgin

What's the point of losing my virginity?

I'm good with my life not fucking HB's.

I don't think about sex, especially after I stopped the porn. I don't talk about sex with my bros. Never comes up in a conversation. And when it does the rare time we're all drinking and nobody gives a fuck, I can spit RP truths and people think I'm experienced. All my real friends are betas and/or don't talk about sex. I'm in my early 20's.

I recently started approaching random HBs, after I approached a few of them randomly (day game) and I got a few numbers after there was a connection, but I never bothered doing anything with them. I also don't leave the house for things other than university events. And even then, everyone who goes is at best an HB7 since I'm in Engineering.

I've recently had a soft HB8 tell me straight up that she wanted to suck my dick (she dumbed it down to straight talk for me) and I didn't even get hard. Actually the only time I got hard was when she started some intense kino later. Didn't sleep with her, or make out, or put it in her pooper, because it was known that she had a boyfriend, and that's where I (unfortunately) draw the line. Something strange that I've noticed is that all the girls that I find attractive and that are interested in me (actively giving IOIs) are not single, and are "experienced" despite the fact they look like a "good girl" half the time.

Anyways, even if I get blatant signs from a girl who won't be cheating with me, I've never even used a rubber, and I live with my parents. And how do I build experience if I refuse to fuck fatties or anything under HB7?

I just don't see a point of gaming. I don't want to LTR any chick that I'm attracted to, yet I want an LTR. And for some reason, I don't trust the girls I'm attracted to to have any level of innocence. The last one revealed that she's done anal and had a few fuck-buddies. And she's 19. Did I mention I was a virgin? That's some standard to live up to if I ever want to fuck an HB8+.

It's all so confusing. I enjoy life without sex, and yet that's the opposite of what everyone else wants to do. Always. People just wanna fuck.

Why do I feel so left out? Should I just fuck some brainless bar slut and get it over with? Or a fucking escort for all I care. And waste my first experience on somebody I don't give a fuck about?

Now that I've discovered TRP I know that it's not worth saving myself for anybody.

But I still want to do it. Yet at the same time I know that no girl I'd ever be attracted would save herself for marriage or some shit. And I don't really want to get married until I'm past 30.

Should I just stay single for the rest of my life until I marry an ugly socially awkward good girl and fulfill my goal of raising a family? Then again, AWALT, so I'll probably never get that either.

It's pretty much the end of my rant. Anybody pointing out my hamster (I know it's there, I just can't spot it) would be appreciated.

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[–]cockstantino[S] 0 points1 point2 points 10 years ago* (3 children) | Copy Link

You don't think about sex because you don't want to think about not getting sex. You've gone so long without being laid that your brain is trying to convince you that not being laid is a conscious decision on your part or a consequence of just not feeling like it. The reality is the opposite. And maybe you actually are kind of fine with it now, but that's only because you couldn't or didn't get laid before. Obviously it is of some concern to you or you wouldn't be posting here. Sex isn't everything in life. That much is true, and it's good that you don't think so, but you need to be honest with yourself about why you are actually not having it.

I have a religious family, and my dad is pretty much a Priest. He only does good to the world. He didn't shove anything down my throat (in fact, he didn't speak to me about women and marriage beyond abstinence and marrying a good catholic girl. we didn't even have "the talk"), but I would feel so much guilt if I "turned into a degenerate".

I want an LTR but like I said, I know no woman that I'm attracted to is worth the effort. And I don't want mindless sex.

When I was growing up every neckbeard virgin (not saying you fall into this category) I knew mentally fellated themselves about how "asexual" they were or how no woman was good/pretty/intelligent enough for them and blah blah. My best friend was one of them. And invariably, as we got older, they all stuck their dicks in the first girl who would open her legs for them. Most of them married the first person they could find who would fuck them. These girls were 3s or 4s at best. In the end it was all just a smokescreen to give themselves the illusion that it was their choice. I know this because I went through a dry spell between kicking out my fiance and discovering TRP, and I did the same damn thing. I told myself I was improving myself. I didn't feel like dating. I didn't want to spend money. But honestly, the bitter truth was that I just fucking couldn't get laid. After being with an LTR for six years, I'd forgotten how to date.

A few months back, I had one girl invite me to crash at her place (she lives alone) while giving me a deer-in-the-headlights stare. She was showing me interest all night. This was after a late event at the University. I simply made an excuse because I knew what she meant and I know she's in a 2-year relationship. I think she's cute. HB7.

Another girl a few weeks back, we were at a hotel for a trip again for university. She told me she wanted to suck my dick, and there were two other guys in the room. One was distracted on his phone and the other went to the bathroom at the time. She then had to "go get something from her hotel room" and and dragged my arm. She's cute. HB8 without makeup. I know she has a boyfriend. He wasn't there at the time. Same deal.

At another event a few weeks back, I walked a girl to the bus. She kept asking "what now?". We were alone together. She was laughing at everything I said. I literally said the lamest things to test the waters. Doesn't matter, anime eyes, she's up for whatever. I didn't do anything with this one because I don't find her body attractive. Nice face. Doesn't meet HB7 requirement. Nexted.

Side-note, I'm below 10% BF and I've been lifting for a few years. I groom often. No neckbeard here. Another side-note, most of the girls at the University in Engineering are heavier than I am or have ugly faces (a good face is the thing I'm the most attracted to). I do not find them attractive at all. They are also all taken if they're the slightest bit attractive.

Maybe I should just lower my standards? Or like you said, escort. But then again I've never broken any laws, and if people found out well that would be sad for my reputation.

-e- Now that you've got me thinking I honestly think my problem is that I don't make any straight up sexual advances, it's usually the girls who start. Or we end up staring at each other because the girl's waiting on me to make a move, and I don't really want it that bad.

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I value sex a lot more than others, which is why I don't just give it away or base my life on trying to get laid. Sucks to be the only guy who is fully capable of fucking several sidehoes, but chooses to do nothing about it.

I'd like to not be MGTOW, but I just can't connect with any girls. And like I said the ones I do connect with are not LTR material, and I may burn potential bridges if I make a move (AWALT even the nerdy engineer hoes).

I'm happy with my life and goals. I just feel like the whole world is on another wavelength when every TV show, song, and person's lifestyle is based on getting their genitals wet; there's literally no other point to going to a bar or a club, and all media talks about sex.

Looks like I'll have to just stick it in a woman some day. Something makes me feel a bit depressed when I think of it that way though.

You say you value sex more than others. Sorry mate, but that's bullshit. You don't even know what it's like. All you're doing is putting it on a pedestal, and the only thing that does is making it less accessable for yourself.

For what it's worth, I'll share some personal perspective. I've always been a relationship guy, but in hindsight I've allowed girls in my life who were just not worthy of such a position. And so what, I've made mistakes, I learned. In fact, I would say these past experiences were essential to make the relationship possible that I'm in now, which so far gives me everything I ever wanted out of it.

Girls want a guy who has some experience and knows what he's doing. So if it is a successful LTR you're after I suggest you get some training first. And while you're at it, do yourself a favour and have some fun alright?

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Title	Rant from a Virgin
Author	cockstantino
Upvotes	2
Comments	12
Date	October 1, 2015 5:06 AM UTC (10 years ago)
Subreddit	Posted in /r/askTRP
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