I need help, I went to my ex to let her know that I don't want to have sex with you anymore and neither one of us needs to sleep over each others house anymore. To which she agreed, saying she felt the same because of where her relationship was going with the guy she's with, but started to question me as to why the change.

This chick is now with the guy she cheated on me with continuously throughout our relationship, text him/ send pics while i was at work and she didn't work living in my apartment, fucked him, had me drive her to a restaurant he was at while lying to me saying it was a female friend of hers, and just other fucked up shit too much to write.

During the conversation she talked about how they went to a wedding and how good it felt to be with him. Who in their right fucking mind would say that to another person and expect them to be ok with that? She continued saying that all I could think about was you (which i think is bullshit) I stopped her and told her "I don't care what's going on with you two, don't bring him up again." She goes on to say it's not fair that I can't talk to you about him as friends. Told her "I don't care, I'm not that guy you can talk to about other men, you're a smart girl, you'll figure it out."

I can go on about what was said that night but this is what's bothering me: I don't care that we aren't getting back together because I don't want her, but I'm seeing all the ways she hurt me. I don't know why I can't shake the feeling that I won't be able to attract someone else in my life, why the thought of her marrying this guy creeps up and i feel negativity about it. Why don't I not care? I'm kinda lost and need to stay focused on me to get the things I want, last night knocked me back a little. Any and all help is appreciated