I swallowed the pill. The only thing that changed is that my (relatively) blissful ignorance has been spoiled. I just feel fucked over. I have nothing. I am ugly, recessed jaw, long midface (Yes, I got that from sluthate.). There is nothing remotely masculine on me. I am skinny-fat and I suspect low T is in play, since working out doesn't change anything. I come from a poor family. There is five of us living in a tiny 35m² flat. I have no friends and no hobbies. At least I have close to no libido, so I don't have to touch my miserable small penis more than once a month. I am starting to seriously consider mugging people, to save up for a plastic surgery and steroids. If that doesn't work out, I can just kill myself.