I'm 19. I don't think I'm attention whoring or looking for support.
I have an enormous itch to end my life, but I've always made fun of people killing themselves because of women/other people.
I want to off myself because I never did anything of substance in my life, except for abusing alcohol and drugs. I dropped out of high school at 17 and I was lost since then. I stopped getting any attention from girls, I don't go out anymore, all my friends have moved on and I'm on my own. I recently got fat for the first time in my life. I don't think lifting and being good looking again will help me, as women never gave me satisfaction in my life. Ever. I also lifted until December, and it didn't help my depression.
All I do is sleep and watch TV series. I sometimes also drink. I never even had to raise a finger to do anything, because I was raised in a pretty rich(man-free. never had a father figure.) family that pampered me. I'm unable to do anything on my own.
Sounds like I'm whining a lot. I am. Everyone around me says that I should grow up and start doing something, find a job, but nothing interests me - everything is boring. And I also won't be slaving for dog Polish money(4 dollars/hour is a good wage here. Pathetic.) I have been treated by a psychiatrist, didn't really help - the dick just made jokes about me being dependent on my mother. His meds were more of a joke than I am.
Now, that I got that off my chest - is there anything positive about life that I could be looking forward to? A reason at all why people like me shouldn't just shoot their fucking heads off?
I know my text could be unreadable - I'm drunk and high.
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