31 year old. Married. But I fuck around a lot, it’s an open relationship.

HB9 at work flirts with me. So hot I didn’t tell her I was married at first. Then I added her to Facebook and she found out. Things changed after that, and it’s been 6 months since that change (half of our relationship) and we’ve been fighting ever since, one time she went as far as angrily stating, “you want us to be friends? OK, let’s talk about your wife.” That shut me up.

But then it’s hot and cold as the moment I stopped giving her attention she came back for more. Rinse repeat.

We never banged. We worked on the same floor. Pretty much everyone around us – including myself – noticed our undeniable spark. No one on the floor knew I was married either, reason being I am going to quit and move with my wife. Anyway, she said she would “never bang anyone from work.”

She left the job.

I saw her at the gym and she said to contact her in 2 months and we can get together with coworkers.

But honestly, I got attached to her. All the push and pull, the investment of time getting to know her, the initial spark, all made me develop feelings for her.

Throughout this entire time I actually felt like, really fucking stupid for spending so much time with her and developing a connection with her. Developing feelings for her was my fault. I really liked her (PERFECT BODY). She didn’t fuck with me because she knew I was married and wasn’t cool with being a side chick or banging a guy from work. And I get it.

But in that process I got to know her really well, hear about her family, got to know her as a person. While sex was just off the plate.

Anyway, it’s been 2 months. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about her. I go to bed every night thinking of her and wake up every morning with her on my mind. I’ve been banging a lot of other women and spinning the plates, but I can’t seem to get over her.

What bothers me most is this constant tug of war we play. When we’re together it’s mind blowing, not like anything I’ve ever experienced before. Just complete bliss. And then things take a turn for a worse, she’ll make a toxic comment and hurt me. Then I leave. And we do it all over again. It’s like a drug.

So far it’s been 2 months and I: - Deleted her off Facebook - Hid her on LinkedIn - Deleted her number and convo from the phone (didn’t block her number idk I’m still holding onto that) - I have to destroy a gift I got her still

Are there any other tips? I’ve been fucking around with other people, but honestly this girl was legit the 1% of the women population in terms of looks and personality. Pretty much my ideal woman in every way. That’s the part that bothers me the most. My mind just keeps obsessing over her.

If you can offer any advice that would be great.