I already came a long way from my teenage years. Before I was very shy, awkward, didn't stand up fro myself, scared to speak, etc. etc. It was even so bad that I was scared of taking a sweater to class due to being afraid of confrontation(I don't even know how but that's how bad it was..)

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Atm I am in my early 20s and I moved up the social "hierarchy", I am more confident, go clubbing with friends, stand up for myself etc. but I am still a long way from where I want to be. I am still anxious, not as confident when speaking, trouble making friends, etc.

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I feel like I need to change all the negative wiring and fix my subconscious that I had for 90% of my life. I try to improve every day, and talk with people, etc. but for example in the beginning everyone sees me as a "cool" guy but after they get to know me more and more I move down in the group "hierarchy", especially when the group consists of a bunch of "alphas". They probably notice that I am just faking it and with time find out that I am more introverted, shy(not as bad as before )/ not as confident.

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Any advice on how I can achieve that?/fix my subconscious wiring?