Hello there,

I recently had my first experience dating a girl and got my heart ripped into pieces.

It started off with her contacting me on facebook. She said she had a crush on me when we both went to the same school and decided to contact me when she saw me in the city hanging out with some friends. We met to walk a dog from the shelter and eat some ice cream. She complimented my looks a few times which felt great as an average looking guy.

Second date went great too and at the end i could tell she wanted a kiss (but i didnt go for it). She sent me many cute messages. On the third date we kissed and on the fourth we had sex. On our last date after cuddling naked in my bed she told me i make her so happy and content and that she dreams of me. I obviously fell in love HARD with her.

I remember the next day I was thinking to my self that I probably have my first girlfriend now. She wanted to meet again that day but I was already meeting up with friends so I told her I would like to meet on another day. That was the day she decided to ghost me. After a few days I wrote her if something is wrong and a week later she replies she has no feelings for me so it couldnt work out with us. I was crushed.

Two weeks later I saw her at a party. She pretended like I didnt even exist when i went to say hello. Later in the night I saw her dance with and kiss another guy on the dance floor - at least like 6 years older than me, much taller, muscular build. I felt like such a worthless piece of shit. On a different occasion I saw her with a girl friend of hers. The friend was staring at me while she was giggling about something.

Now it is 4 months later and im still hurting over this. The girl never contacted me again. I liked her way too damn much.

This is my first longer experience with a girl, because before i didnt really give a shit about them and focused on my career. That got me into probably like the top 2% of earners in my age group. (Making 6 figures in my early 20s in europe)

I started going to the gym 3 months ago and im starting to see some nice results (I looked really skinny at the time). I went to socialize a lot and got myself a bunch of new friends. Replaced my clothes (didnt really care for style at all before) and got my own place (lived with my parents before) and got a new better paying job.

Still, I cant shake off the feeling of being totally worthless. Being abruptly abandoned like this makes me feel like my utter soul is being rejected. Girls pretty much didnt give a shit at all about me all my life so I had high hopes for this one. I miss her all the time.

I dont even know what my question is - do you have any tips for me?