Im currently 22. After my gf broke up with me when I was 20 I decided to game this girl in my first year college class. Great Christian long, beautiful blonde hair, good values and upbringing. Her boyfriend of 6 years broke up with her so she was ripe for a new dick.

I was pretty happy about how good I was gaming her. She would let me touch her hair so I practiced a ton of kino. We also texted a lot.

I had that "feeling" you get when you find a girl you are really into. I couldnt control myself and on valentine's day that year I took her top off, I was also a bad kisser than. In hindsight she was distressed, I kissed her a lot and did not speak to me after that night. She tried to ignore me in class every since.

This event has imprinted something on me and I don't understand. I have a girlfriend as of now and she is the best ever. Perfect tits and ass, a bit chubby but still decent. Does ANYTHING I say and apologizes feverishly when I get mad or say I dont like something. One time she thought I was about to ghost her and she straight up asked me "what did I do wrong was it something I said".

Perfect ltr woman from a trp perspective. In her first BF but second fuck so everything were doing is new to her. She let's me do pretty much anything I want to get and treats me like a god.

I cant forget about the first girl though and the thought that if I had a little bit of patience of better game I could've got her.

Is this common? I feel bad because I thought the first girl was close to a unicorn I'd get. Plus I was looking forward to fucking and also studying together with this girl since we have similar career paths