Just for reference, my first and only GF was about 7 years ago, and I have been extremely out of practice since (32). Since then, and even dare I say even before I have never been good with expressing romantic interest in women, I find attractive. I assume every girl is just being friendly, and after a few truly embarrassing situations last year where I completely fumbled due to inexperience and nerves, I decided I wanted to try and put myself out there instead of being hung on my ex.

I have been frequenting a bar where there's a girl that's a bartender who is the best friend of my friend's wife. I've known her for about a year, I believe I asked for her number before and texted her when she was still going through stuff w/ her ex, never received a response. Since then, I've been hanging out at mutual events with my friend and his wife and for the first time a few weeks ago she showed up. I've always felt a bit awkward being around her since as I didn't want to make her uncomfortable but later on, she came over and sat by me and we started talking a bit poking fun at each other. After that seems like we were on better at least friendly terms, she seemed to not hate me or think I was disgusting like I figured,

Fast forward to next week, a girlfriend of a friend of mine from work invited me to come out and celebrate her birthday during a weekday. The whole night I was just hanging out with them having fun, and low and behold guess who shows up. As the night got longer, she came over and seemed to seek me out just talking and messing around poking fun at each other. She said "I can't stand you!!" laughing and I just put my head down saying I didn't do anything to you. I looked up, and she is leaning over the counter staring me straight in the eyes dazed cupping her face. I usually am totally oblivious to this stuff, but that truly felt like there was some strong attraction in the moment.

This past Friday, I hung out with our mutual friends while she was working one night. It could have just been because it was busy or because her good friends were there talking as usual, but it felt different so much (she didn't meet my gaze nor seem flirty as she was) I'm doubting if I even experienced that last week or am I insane. Maybe I was just being used for attention, but I just wanted to get some others input and try to be able to decipher interest in its beginning stages.

I apologize for the wall of text, but I truly have no idea what I'm doing in this aspect of my life.

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