During the holidays, Eve texts me she needs a ride to get to her car. Texts back and forth and she invites me at her place if I can give her the ride. She sends me her train information and I wait for her at the station right where her door opens. She smiles upon seeing me through the window. I propose some help for her bag but don't reach for it. She tells me it's OK but visibly regret it in the stairs. I smirk and watch her struggle. She sees it, laugh and don't ask for the help I don't propose again.

We get to my car, the ride is spent catching up about both our holidays. We get to her car and head to her place. We buy pizzas on the way.

She put some smooth music on her old school hifi. The sound is great. She switches off the main lights and put some smaller lights to create a mood. We eat the pizzas, drink beers and talk a lot. We get to know each other and I have a very good time.

Hours are passing and although I have a great time and would be happy with that as is, I know things will not easily get this right in the foreseeable future and I push my luck. I talk about relationships and what I want right now. She tells me about the guy she thinks she loves and want to try to settle with if he ever gets the visa to get back in our country. She expresses the need to have fun before this can happen and the children arrive (she is older than me). What she expresses match what I said before about me. At this point I extend my arm and touch her hair. She does not move away, she looks at me. And then stupid me chickens out and does the hair touching again and breaks eye contact. She tells me this is not a good idea and we both laugh it off. I curse myself for not having the balls to try the kiss immediately and for having broken eye contact.

We talk for more than an hour after that, no awkwardness. She reciprocate the kino I did before the failed kiss attempt. Our feet are "accidentally" touching and she sometimes touch my leg when talking. She works tomorrow so when she gathers the remains of the pizzas I take it as my clue to leave.

** Lessons learned :**

  • Kino on a couch is hard. It seems unnatural. I managed to go for incidental arm, deliberate arm and incidental leg. Finally I went directly for the deliberate hair, and I believe it could have worked had I not been afraid.

  • I have no clue whether she wants something with me. It may be confirmation bias. She may be shy. No idea. A lot of mixed signals

EDIT:

FR #1 is there

FR #3 is there